Where I Again May Love: Heart Springs V

The original poem, If I Homeward Turn, to which this is an epilogue, was published as part of my participation in the previous 30 Hubs in 30 Days Hub Challenge.

I am presently trying to pick up the pieces of my so-called life and "get on with It", as we are so fond of saying to ourselves. It ain't easy. I find my thoughts flying back to happier times - and at the darnedest moments.

Shopping for groceries the other day, I reached for some fruit - a variety that I don't much care for - thinking, "Oh, yes, she would like those for her lunches...", and realized, as my eyes filled with tears, that I didn't need to buy them after all.

It's always the little, unconscious things that give us away.

Tomorrow, I will go out and conquer that big, bright, shiny world.

I lie now, in my solitude, and liar still,

My heart turns back to happier days -

To days of love, remembered bliss;

My wrinkled sheets once held your scent;

Now only sweat of loss and pain -

Now only cold and bitter-dewed;

No common thread remains to bind,

No ties to hold each others souls;

Love, lorn and reft, love now denied;

Come, answer then, shall I hold fast?

And how to hold love, now unbound?

Love bounded by another's mind?

Yet love unkindly stirs my heart;

Still bruised and still unwilling yet

To sever love from untrue love;

Cold bitter ashes clog the breath

That spoke our love, and gave it life;

Now life has fled, and too must I

Or trapped, remain in emptiness;

So will must stronger be than heart,

Than sorrowing soul, than grief, than pain,

Lest love and life shall here remain;

So, onward I with heavy step;

Heart-foundered, lost - no star to shine

Me homeward, yet new home to find -

New self unbind from old love's chains;

New faith to seek, new hope to find

New life, new joys, and homeward fly

To some sweet land, where I again may love